dunno what i'm doing typing this in here but what the hey i'm on the brink .
i've had a terribly hard year this year and its really taken its toll .Even though we've (me and my family) have turned it around . heres some background . I lost my job in august but found a better job after 2 months of worrying and stress. during this time we'd also commited to buy a new house more worry and stress then we find out my wife is pregnant happy but stressed lol . All this has happened in the last 4 months but finally last month we move i'm settling into my new job and baby is fine and well so i think great its been a helluva struggle but we've done it and came out the other end BUT this wonderfully expensive new house just happens to be next to an old man and his loser jobless hippy of a son whos room is next to ours , said hippy enjoys playing the organ (he's approx early 40's i think) early into the wee hours every other night , now me being at the end of my tether i'm ready a couple of nights ago to frankly go to prison for a ling time until my wife persuades me to do nothing as she was worrying about what i'd do, so i put the baseball bat back in the garage and sleep in the spare room (the missus said she'd go round the next morning and has a poilte word and i dont do polite these days) anyway she didnt get round to it and it happened again last night , fortunately i get very drunk and slept in the spare bed but she went round at 3am in her dressing gown and let them know they were out of order they quietened down , now i'm worried because i know if they start up again i will be driving through their front room in a psycotic rage .
I really feel like giving up and honestly feel on the edge of some sort of episode .
There are other things thats also contributed to my plight and i know in the grand scheme of things that i guess its not all that bad but honestly to me everything is tearing me up i just dont have the strength or will to fight much owt else , dont get me wrong i aint suicidal or anything like.
sorry about this thread weird i know lol