is there something wrong with me

[Deztroyer]

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dont forget to make that call this morning - or go down the docs and sit there till someone can see you

[callum]

hi mate just seen this first of all i sympathise with you very much.
i had the same type thing about 5 years ago now when i was at home and got a phonecall from my dad telling me i need to get to his asap so obviously hearing the upset in his voice i dropped everything and spun up there about 130 mph and when i got there my mum was in tears immediatly i knew something terrible had happened i was told the police had found y brother dead in his flat he was there for two weeks before anyone found him . obviously i didnt have a lot of contact with my brother as he lived in london i lived in stafford but i would go down as often as i could we were very close and always spoke when we needed each other so this absolutly killed me and luckily i had my girlfriend y my side but im the type of person who bottles everything up and dont talk bout things and mate i ust say this made me very bad always snapping at closest to me and permanantly thinking what if and i now have two kids and even now i always think the same but i dont le it control me anymore i make sure my kids have everything they can in life and make sure i do right by them and tell them i love them everyday.
you just have to keep telling yourself that everything is completely out of your control accidents will happen and nobody can change that fact its just you have to sit back and deal with whatever life throuws at us in the best possible way
you will get through this mate just remember you have so much in life to look forward to with your daughter and not to look back .
mate i wish u all the best and take care if u need to talk email me and we can chat take care buddy i wish u all the best

[FIL 4822]

You've done so much worrying about other people, its taken its toll on you.
I lost my dad in Feb 09 and spent so much time and effort making sure everyone else was ok, i neglected myself.
It took until May last year before it all finally caught up with me and i ended up making myself ill through stress.
It was my family that got me through it.

So my advice is 'Talk to your family FIRST !' This maybe all thats needed to get you through it.

If theres no acceptable improvement, then seek professional help as others have said.

Good luck and keep your chin up !
FIL.

[big tee]

go to the docs mate please its more common than you think and its nothing to be ashamed of.... i didnt take the advice and carried on thinking i will feel better tommorrow WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!..3 weeks later i had a huge nervous breakdown hit total rock bottom took me over 3 months to recover still have off days now but tablets and TALKING help..i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy what i went through..if you need to talk you can pm me anytime and i will send you my home number,,

[markm]

thanks Dez that means alot with you saying to pm you... yes its sometimes best to talk to strangers makes you think... i mean at one point i used to really care about what people think about me i used to go out of my way to help people i used to have manners but now i just feel as tho most people only think about them selfs and wouldnt think twice in screwing you over so now i have become less caring to others... lifes just sh~~t at the moment everything is death people getting killed people fighting where did it all go wrong

Mate, that is the way life is at the moment, people don't give a S!!T about others these days , look after yourself and your family, don;y worry about the ones that would rather use you than be a true mate,

I have two lovely boys now after 10 years of trying for a family, worry about money all the time LOL but I'm not hard up, go figure,, and whats going to happen in the future, BUT I WOULD KILL if anything happened to them by the hand of others, just look at the news at the moment about the little ones in that nursery,. there are other far worst off then you so chin up fella , I reccon I am suffering from SADS this year too,

But talk to the doctor,, if you fell like you getting worst, also try Holland and Barrett, they are trained in basic things and can recommend something to lift your mood that will stay off your record

[dannyjpuk]

i do feel better for talking to you guys and it does make me think there is people alot worse off than me... i did get up this morning but i could not ring the docs i dunno i just couldnt so i went back to bed thats all i ever seem to do is sleep im allways tired.... i allways used to wear a clean pressed shirt bull my boots for work but now i can wear the same shirt for days (i do go in the bath tho ) a few days ago i walked away from my ex as it was just too much we are not getting on things like when i come home and jump into bed with her she gets up and she sleeps in the spare room or when im on early shift im not aloud to stop at hers as i apparently wake every one up its just sh~@t like that and its no good... anyway when i left i said ill see the little one friday so friday being today i got up after night shift and i rang her saying i was on my way (oh emma is coming over) i said u knew i was coming over (oh well i thought u wanted more sleep) either way i cant win anyway i said tell emma to wait so i went to see the little one as soon as i walked threw the door DADDY!!! god that feeling is the best anyway.. her what a face it was so uncomfortable i must ov only been there 20mins door goes ohhh suprise its emma her mate..... so i just left i know drink is not the answer but im going out 2nite and im going to get wasted im allways working and i never go out...

[gibbon7000]

Glad you had a small pick me up from your daughter, Ex's can be complete selfish bitc hes, I'm having no-end of problems about visiting my daughter,It was xmas day night when i last saw her. It really gets me down. I spend alot of time sleeping, but it makes you more lazy. but on the upside you never have any worries when ur asleep, andi suppose its better than drinking in one respect. I know the wethers not great but get ur ass out the house go for a walk, get ome fresh air circulating and try and think of happy times.

[dannyjpuk]

omg i wish i listened to you lot thats me just in i ended up at the ****** casino....not good